Thu 12/31/2020

Well, this goddamned year is finally over. Good riddance! My 2020 New Year's Resolution was "write more." These monthly blog posts grew out of that goal, and also as a way to back off of social media a bit. I (obviously) didn't know that it would end up being such a bizarre year to document. It often felt like I was writing the same post over and over again as the months blurred together, but December actually felt a little different.

A big part of that was just Christmas. The girls popped out of bed each morning and ran to open the next window on their advent calendar, and the countdown (or build up) to Christmas kept things chugging along. The day itself was stressful, but the infusion of new toys and puzzles has made these past few days of parenting a bit easier.

Another thing that felt different was I actually managed to complete a few personal projects. Claire and I put together our annual family zine (which doubles as a Christmas card) and after three and a half years I finally finished another issue of Phase 7. I am slowly chipping away at shipping out issue #024 to subscribers, and will have ordering information available in the new year. The very first issue of Phase 7 was also published in the last days of December (eighteen years ago!) so I always get a pang of nostalgia when sending out an issue during this time of year.

At the end of November Rivers Cuomo released 2,500+ of his demos from the last twenty years for sale on his personal website. For weezer fans this is the holy grail. I'm taking my time listening to them all - this month I made it from pre-weezer days up to about 2002. It's been an amazing experience. There are so many things I never thought I'd get a chance to hear, and it's incredible to hear songs form from riffs, lyrics, chord progressions, etc. It's given me much deeper insights into Cuomo's songwriting process, and the creation of so many songs that I love. I was initially upset about the delay of Van Weezer (their new album) until sometime next year, but now I'm like, "Take your time!" I've got plenty of music to dig through.

Okay, so... how did I do? Did I write more this year? Let's look at the numbers:

  • I wrote twelve monthly "backer blog" posts (about 6,000 words) for the Isle of Elsi Patreon (only $1/month if you'd like to join)
  • I wrote eleven posts for this blog (about 10,000 words)
  • I wrote four drafts of the fifth Isle of Elsi story, Liz Tekcar in The Contested Contest, which ended up being 29 pages. It is currently being serialized online, click here to go to page 1)
  • I finally wrote a blog post about Edward Lear that I've been meaning to write for a few years (tonight! I wanted to get it in before the buzzer).

This blog makes me feel two ways: 1) I want to delete it, along with all my other blogs and just start over with a simple, clean website that just has some of my work on it and like a CV or whatever. 2) If I delete it, it feels like the social media corporations win. Like the only way you're able to share anything online is through their toxic capitalist system. UGH.

I don't think I'll keep up the monthly blog posts, but I guess ideally I'll keep writing here. I think the key might be smaller posts, not big monthly recaps. We'll see how it goes...

Anyway, if you read these posts this year, thanks for following along with my pandemic experience! Here's hoping 2021 starts to head in a better direction for all of us.

2 comments on this entry

Don’t delete it & f the corps. Being able to connect with a creator through their own words is much more meaningful than looking at a brochure/cv website - even if it feels like you’re talking to yourself. Would you wish that you’d never written a book if people only started to read it 10y after you wrote it?

Arp Jan01

Don't put any pressure on yourself. Make a post when you feel like it. Long or very short, whatever... But keep this place to do it. Social media come and go. Most artist won't have anything left of their post in ten years. Yours is here to stay.

Max de Radigués Jan02

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